Someone interesting. I wanna start fresh from hello and get to know every little detail about them. Someone who will talk to me in the middle of the night and who will make me smile. There doesn’t have to be an attraction. Just someone to explore. Someone who wants to figure me out.
dont get me wrong, i like it when people say “you lost weight!” thats a plus of dieting, cause people recognize your efforts and it proves to yourself that you’re going in the right direction. but what i really cant stand is that, when i grab that small 100 calorie cookie, people are like “are you gonna eat that?” “arent you on a diet?” CAN I NOT EAT A DAMN COOKIE?! yeah its true im on a diet, and its also true that i shouldnt eat the cookie, but let me breathe a little! everyday i count calories and check to make sure im not over eating. its hard enough to restrain myself from eating unhealty, but people emphasize that I shouldnt eat a piece of chocolate or one chip, i really just want to scream. point of the story is, LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE! its MY diet and i can control myself and I can dictate what i want to eat or what I dont want to eat. stop telling me to eat more and then tell me to not eat unhealthy foods. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
they say that I have the choice to eat or not. they say im being stupid and that not eating will get me no where. but its not that I dont want to, its that I cannot. my mind wont let me put in the 210 calories into my mouth. my stomach screams “give me, give me, give me” but my head screams “weight, weight, weight.” I am not sick, I am not ill, this is what you made me.